
"हम तो चोरी से सराब चुवाएँगे!"
What creates a criminal ? Actually that’s still a reasonably easy question to answer. A criminal could be created if one is hungry for money or lust or anything one desires and he decides to break norms of society for his advantage at cost of others. A harder question is what creates a sadist? How can someone derive pleasure in troubling others, even if it does not help him in any way? How does one justify these kinds of acts to himself? Is it the environment in which you are raised that determines the outcome or is it simply genetic i.e. some people have just been created that way?
These are the questions I need to answer before I can get myself completely into Arun’s skin. More than memorizing my lines in script, more than rehearsals, more than interacting with other characters, I have been spending most of my time these days diving deep into the questions above . I am fabricating events not mentioned in the script, that might have happened in Arun’s past, and may bring consistency to his behavior in the play.
The hardest part in the role is judging when he is actually sincere and when is he pretending, what is his mental state at a given point, and what is his objective in any action of his. He is clearly not a kind of person I meet often – some times he fears a house and at a different time, he would not fear murdering someone. He is definitely a product of emotions and experiences of a scale which I have never endured in my life. And I have to bring them alive to the audience. That’s the part of my job. That’s the part of the fun.